Undercover Priestess: Secret Diary of a Whore

Part 8: Taking the War Out of Men

In my years of attempting to “find” the temple within this broken realm of the Lost Goddess, I eventually realized that for the session to go well, to create space for a true sacred experience where the presence of the Goddess could be known, I needed to get them in a certain state of presence before ever coming close to touch and certainly anything erotic.

Essentially I needed to get them into my frequency and my paradigm.

While each Stranger was of course unique, most of them were- to varying degrees- occupying a consciousness, quality of presence and paradigm that is fundamentally antithetical to the Sacred Prostitute realm. To the realm where the Divine and Erotic are one. The realm where the presence of the Goddess is known.

Over so many thousands of hours and years and years of exploring these spaces, it really became evident that there were “two realities” in the space. One on the surface- the dominant paradigm. One in the deep. A primal reality. Underneath. Underneath. Underneath. This is where SHE resides which is why the presence of the Divine Erotic resides here too.

This is where I cultivated so many of the embodiment practices I teach now as pathways to the Goddess. Because I had to learn how to guide these men from one world to another. The entryway into this primal Goddess layer, underneath- the Doorway into this place- is inside the embodied present moment. The key is in how we orient to the moment.

In the above world, dominant paradigm, several things were likely to be occurring in them.

One is simply being inside of their head and not inside of their body at all.

Another is a subtle “reaching” with their body and consciousness, rather than Being and receiving. Reaching into the moment to direct the moment. Reaching towards me. And most of all reaching towards the agenda of whatever experience they wanted to have or more accurate- what they thought they wanted to have.

Another layer of this subtle embodiment posture of reaching is reaching towards the “peak” eroticism with a sense of urgency.

Another aspect of the dominant paradigm layer is simply their own relationship to being a man inside of a context where some kind of erotic experience is going to happen with a woman. And the conditioning to relate to that from various different strategies of dominance or “leading”. Finally, within the dominant paradigm layer, existed simply the perversion of the erotic itself. And all the grotesque, immature ways that pleasure has been twisted into a pornographic phantasm.